My love,
I'm sitting here alone on the couch in our apartment on this cool, crisp autumn evening and I can't feel anything but intense, soul-consuming love.
I've never written anything like this to you before because I have no clue how to even begin. How do I put into words something that is of such...grandeur? How do I tell the love of my life everything that's written on my heart? How do you begin to tell someone something like that? I feel...inept.
Our love story is written in the quiet moments when no one is watching. That's not to say that we have a relationship in secret, because we definitely do not. Nine times out of ten, if you're somewhere, I'm there, too (and vice versa). But it's the every day moments...the times when we're hanging out just the two of us. When I try to dazzle you in the kitchen and you slyly look at me in your Gary-way and say, "Do you got this? You need my help?" in that teasing way you do. The way you adore my laughter and how it fills the entire room. It's the way you have 700 nicknames for me, and we both know how I earned each one. The way I can hit my head on the fireplace mantel not once, but twice, and it instantly makes you laugh, not because you enjoyed watching me get hurt, but because it's part of the "Christina-ness" that you love. How I can tell you, "I had a tomato moment today..." and you know exactly what I'm talking about. How it's Monday, so we both know we're going to watch The Voice after you close down the restaurant and come upstairs and we'll spend the night with the DVR and a pizza, discussing each of the artists and songs seriously, like we know a thing or two. The way you can tease me about being a handful and I know that you're just telling me you love me. Our love story is filled with nuances and anecdotes to which everyone else is not privy, but they're cherished moments that are ours alone.
Embarking on this journey with you has been the time of my life. I have fun with you every day. You help me be the best version of myself every day. I fall in love with you all over again every day. We're five years in the making, but I love that fact about us. I love that we get to share a past when we were simply friends (the days of the "drive-bys") and today, we share a life of love.
It's been nearly a year since we set out on this adventure. There has been sunshine and man, have we had to deal with some rain and I'm not saying we're clear of gray skies yet, but even in those desperate times, I know you'll be out there dancing with me as the flood waters rise.
I've had a crush on you since I was 24. I love you today. I'll love you tomorrow. You are my true North. I love you more than I ever thought it was possible to love another person. Every day with you is like TWO Christmases...
Always and forever,
Christina
