She feels like kicking out all the windows and setting fire to this life...

Lately, I find myself in a rut, easily distracted from my best-laid plans. My "someday" seems to slip further and further from my grasp. The tangible steps I've drawn-out dissipate and the vision for my future life blurs into fantasy. I can see the life I want, but taking ownership of the tasks and goals to achieve it feels insurmountable. Days like these will most certainly not be missed. I just want to get out. I just need to get out.

I dreamed myself a thousand times around the world, but I can't get out of this place. -DMB

Fight the Power!

As many of you already know, I found out on Monday that my insurance company decided to overturn their original decision regarding the neurostimulator. I'll be going in for surgery on March 4th! I'm beyond excited for this! I will still have physical limitations and bone pain, but the nerve pain should hopefully be eliminated.

Otherwise, not a whole lot has been going on lately. I've been so busy with school! I feel like I was never this inundated with schoolwork during undergrad! I thought this was supposed to be an easy three semesters and I'd be over and done with this program just as soon as it started! Not so! I don't know why, but in my head, I always thought that technical school was supposed to be so much easier than "regular" school. In some ways, it is, but in other ways, it's not.

I really need a massage. I carry my stress in my shoulders and they are very angry with me. I was hoping to get a massage, but now that I've agreed to be in my cousin's wedding in September, I have to save pretty much everything I have for that. I wanted to get a new dress for my friend's wedding in July, but I already nixed those plans. I'm going to cut my hair, too. That way, I can just do it myself.

Anyway, I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!